Confessions of a single mom, Part 1

I've been wanting to try to blog about this for a few weeks now, I just haven't seemed to have the time. Which not only explains why I don't blog very often, despite the fact that I have plenty of stuff I want to blog about, but is also part of the topic of this post. Oh, and seeing as how I now have a nifty new blogger app for my phone, maybe I can blog more often!

Sometimes, being a single mom is hard, especially trying to homeschool too. Now, I'm sure most people might ask "sometimes"? Don't get me wrong, I've just gotten accustomed to it. I don't know what life is like as a married person, or what life is like having a second parent in helping to raise the kids. This is all I know. So, I'm used to it. Sometimes, I don't see the differences, but other times, they are painfully clear. First, before I go any further, this blog isn't a list of complaints, just confessions. Just me sharing what life is like on my side of the fence! Now, with that said, I'll continue. Lol.

Being a single homeschooling mom, I'm definitely a minority. And I feel it every time I have any "interaction" with, or even see the lives of  (via blogs, tweets, yahoo groups) other homeschooling moms.  I feel out of place. Sometimes, it's hard not to be a tad jealous. I don't mean that in a bad way, where I covet anything they have, but that I wish I too had a husband, my kids had a father, that I could be a full time mom & not part time anything else. I wish I could take my kids to more homeschooling activities, to the park, to more field trips, etc. I wish my home were more organized, and that I even had the time to organize it. I wish I had an adult relationship of some kind, with peers who I have things in common with, that we can give each other advice because we have shared similar experiences. I wish that I had a husband to have a relationship with, to love & care for, to share in the joys & struggles of parenting, homeschooling, & just everyday things, good & bad! I wish I could have the time to be a mom the way I know God wants me to be. But I'm trying to be both mom & dad, and that's hard!

Speaking of which, I'm going to make this a multi-part post. Not only to keep it from being too long, but because I have to go to work. WE have to go.