Confessions, Part 2

Hello, my name is Christina, & I'm a disorganized mess!

Lol. So, on my last post I confessed about sometimes feeling a little jealous (not in a bad way), and feeling like an outsider & minority in a lot of circles. This time, well, I already announced it!

The last few years, things have become more disorganized than I care to admit, but I'm confessing it anyways! Even though I grew up in a family of hoarders (even worse than what you see on the show, I don't think the show will ever cover anything like them, but I'm not here to talk bad about anyone, this is just my confessions), I have always strived to be the opposite. It has been challenging, especially over the last few years. But, I have good reason for that! 

Before 2004, I was pretty consistent about going through my things and getting rid of unused things. Then, in June of 2004, I was suddenly forced to move back in with my mom. I got rid of a lot of stuff, then put a majority of what I owned in storage. Soon after, I got pregnant with my youngest daughter. I had a somewhat difficult pregnancy (working for just the first couple of months, but attending school until the end), & then my daughter, born April of 2005, had health problems, (& still has, only now it's easier). Her first year of life was difficult. So, things piled up a bit. Things got better for her, and therefore easier for me, but just in the health department. I went back to work part-time when she was almost a year old, in February, 2006, and in October my girls & I moved in to a small mobile home (not much bigger than the tiny two-bedroom apartment we had shared with my mom). I started working a second job & going back to school, while still struggling with her health problems. All of this, along with the normal challenges and requirements of motherhood, left me with no time to get things organized, go through and get rid of things. So, all the things normally acquired when you have children, just accumulated. From baby stuff, clothes, even drawings and school papers. Along with other things of mine.

I moved again in July of 2007, this time in to a 3 bedroom house with a garage. I thought this would give me more room to get things sorted & organized. But, I started working different jobs, still attending school until early 2008, and started homeschooling. My mom moved in with me in May of 2008, I started working at the greenhouse in March of 2009, and we moved in to the house we are in now the next month.

I still work at the greenhouse and homeschool, and have also been working in the nursery at one church I attend, since January. I still have a very limited amount of time to work on my house, and that's very frustrating. I want so badly to have the time to devote to it. I wish that I had the ability to be just a stay-at-home mom, and be just mom, instead of mom and dad. I'm not complaining about my life. I am very grateful for the opportunities and blessings that God has given me. He has brought me a long ways, and I know He's not finished yet! I just wish that I could get organized! Oh, how I desperately wish that! I wish I could afford a professional organizer, someone who specializes in helping with houses like mine! But, I can't. So I'll just keep praying for time & trying my hardest to make due with what I've got!