The last couple of weeks have been apparently been more stressful than usual. I say apparently, because last night,I ended up in the ER. I haven't been to the ER for myself in years!
Okay, so, let me back up a little bit.
Last Monday we went to karate, but got a call from my step dad in the middle the first class that he had taken my mom to the er. She also does bot end up in the er very often, so I knew it was serious. Last time she did, she was a having a brain hemorrhage, around 2005/2006. This time, it appeared that it was happening again, she was having some of the same symptoms, along with shaking and vomiting. The Dr's got her back immediately and did a cat scan. Fortunately, she was not having another hemorrhage, but rather, her normally low blood pressure had suddenly sky rocketed to stroke levels. She described the pain as feeling like her skull was going to crack open.
Last week was also filled with cleaning a house for money, working at the greenhouse, delivering Avon, a rescheduled 4-H meeting, a sick kid, and dealing with one pre teen and one (possible) aspergers child. Things have been very tense with the last 2. Also, stressing even more about our financial situation, which has also gotten worse.
This week, it started raining more than we have seen in a couple years due to the drought. That's not bad at all, but it was for my Blazer. Monday I cleaned the one house again, then ran a few errands, including getting gas. Then when we were on our way to karate, I went through a fairly big puddle, and my Blazer started stalling. I thought it would fix itself, but it only got worse. It is still having trouble even today. It's been stalling, dying, misfiring, running to lean, and just not driving good, except for the driving me crazy part. Tuesday morning, when I woke up, before I even opened my eyes, my head hurt so bad. I ended up dozing off for a little while again, but still, when I woke up, it still hurt. That afternoon Faith had to attend the first day of a 4-H Food Showdown, a cooking contest. On my way out to the car, I started to hurt on my right side just behind the lower part of my rib cage. The only way I can describe it is feeling like my organ was bouncing, and the more I walk, the more it hurts, to the point it makes it hard to breathe. Wednesday morning I woke up, and the headache was worse. I now know what my mom was feeling when she said her skull felt like it was going to crack open. But rather than causing me to lose consciousness, I couldn't sleep much that night at all, or even that morning. Fortunately for me, the worst of the pain came and went. But I was feeling week, nauseous, and like I was on the verge of fainting. I still took Faith to the 2nd day of the Food Showdown. She did very well, and despite her team not winning, they learned a lot, and had fun. They are even considering competing in the upcoming Food Showdown in July. I'm happy and excited for them.
Tuesday night a friend of mine came to try to help with my Blazer. Wednesday it still had problems. Wednesday night I asked my mom to come over because I was still miserable, and not sure if I should go to the ER or not. The girls got a ride to church, my friend came and tried again to fix my car. After he left, my mom and I went to the ER. The Dr. said I had a tension headache, and the abdominal pain was an injury to my chest wall caused by heavy lifting. (Not to mention, while all this has been going on, I have been having a lot of pain in my neck. I flipped a 4-wheeler when I was 15, which caused a disc in my neck to get stuck out of place. Beginning in January, it has been causing me constant pain, worse than ever, to the point that I sometimes can't even turn my head.) The Dr. gave me a shot of an anti-inflammatory, which helped, but didn't make it all go away. I was actually able to pop my neck, which relieved a lot of the pain in that location, but only for the night. It was nice while it lasted, though. My head has been doing a lot better, but if I move too fast, or if I or someone else makes a loud noise, or I bend over or squat down, it hurts. My abdomen still hurts, and of course, my neck. I'm hoping and praying for praying for healing all over.
The nurse asked what I do to relieve tension, and I couldn't think of anything. And even if I do something, it's not going to remove the cause of my stress, or make it any better. And as long as I'm having to face these things everyday, and my stress level is constantly high, what can I do? I can't run from my problems, I can't ignore them, and I can't seem to fix them either. I pray, every single day, for help, for answers, for guidance, and I am still at a loss. Things still aren't improving. I just pray I don't end up in the ER again because of it.
Also, this week, I decided we would go media free. At least in certain areas. These were: Facebook, TV, video games, computer games, phone games. This has not been adhered to 100%, except for video and computer games. I have been fighting Trinity every day also as she insists or begs for the tv to be turned on. I wanted to spend this week, especially since most of it was due to be rainy, focusing on God, Bible reading, and the house. But, that has not happened very well. I may allow some tv and stuff in small amounts this weekend, and try to enforce this, at least for the most part, next week. At least for the girls. I'm not sure how exactly I'm going to work it all out, but we will see. Alot of areas in our lives need refocused. Behaviors and attitudes need readjusted. If you visit my other blog (the link is available on the "links" tab of this page), you will see the post I wrote about holiness. I'm trying to work on this for myself and my girls. To live a godly life, reflect godliness, and live a life that is honoring to God. I know it's not going to happen over night, or just in a week. And it's definitely not going to be easy. I just wish I could focus more on this, and less on some of the other things causing me stress.
Okay, so, let me back up a little bit.
Last Monday we went to karate, but got a call from my step dad in the middle the first class that he had taken my mom to the er. She also does bot end up in the er very often, so I knew it was serious. Last time she did, she was a having a brain hemorrhage, around 2005/2006. This time, it appeared that it was happening again, she was having some of the same symptoms, along with shaking and vomiting. The Dr's got her back immediately and did a cat scan. Fortunately, she was not having another hemorrhage, but rather, her normally low blood pressure had suddenly sky rocketed to stroke levels. She described the pain as feeling like her skull was going to crack open.
Last week was also filled with cleaning a house for money, working at the greenhouse, delivering Avon, a rescheduled 4-H meeting, a sick kid, and dealing with one pre teen and one (possible) aspergers child. Things have been very tense with the last 2. Also, stressing even more about our financial situation, which has also gotten worse.
This week, it started raining more than we have seen in a couple years due to the drought. That's not bad at all, but it was for my Blazer. Monday I cleaned the one house again, then ran a few errands, including getting gas. Then when we were on our way to karate, I went through a fairly big puddle, and my Blazer started stalling. I thought it would fix itself, but it only got worse. It is still having trouble even today. It's been stalling, dying, misfiring, running to lean, and just not driving good, except for the driving me crazy part. Tuesday morning, when I woke up, before I even opened my eyes, my head hurt so bad. I ended up dozing off for a little while again, but still, when I woke up, it still hurt. That afternoon Faith had to attend the first day of a 4-H Food Showdown, a cooking contest. On my way out to the car, I started to hurt on my right side just behind the lower part of my rib cage. The only way I can describe it is feeling like my organ was bouncing, and the more I walk, the more it hurts, to the point it makes it hard to breathe. Wednesday morning I woke up, and the headache was worse. I now know what my mom was feeling when she said her skull felt like it was going to crack open. But rather than causing me to lose consciousness, I couldn't sleep much that night at all, or even that morning. Fortunately for me, the worst of the pain came and went. But I was feeling week, nauseous, and like I was on the verge of fainting. I still took Faith to the 2nd day of the Food Showdown. She did very well, and despite her team not winning, they learned a lot, and had fun. They are even considering competing in the upcoming Food Showdown in July. I'm happy and excited for them.
Tuesday night a friend of mine came to try to help with my Blazer. Wednesday it still had problems. Wednesday night I asked my mom to come over because I was still miserable, and not sure if I should go to the ER or not. The girls got a ride to church, my friend came and tried again to fix my car. After he left, my mom and I went to the ER. The Dr. said I had a tension headache, and the abdominal pain was an injury to my chest wall caused by heavy lifting. (Not to mention, while all this has been going on, I have been having a lot of pain in my neck. I flipped a 4-wheeler when I was 15, which caused a disc in my neck to get stuck out of place. Beginning in January, it has been causing me constant pain, worse than ever, to the point that I sometimes can't even turn my head.) The Dr. gave me a shot of an anti-inflammatory, which helped, but didn't make it all go away. I was actually able to pop my neck, which relieved a lot of the pain in that location, but only for the night. It was nice while it lasted, though. My head has been doing a lot better, but if I move too fast, or if I or someone else makes a loud noise, or I bend over or squat down, it hurts. My abdomen still hurts, and of course, my neck. I'm hoping and praying for praying for healing all over.
The nurse asked what I do to relieve tension, and I couldn't think of anything. And even if I do something, it's not going to remove the cause of my stress, or make it any better. And as long as I'm having to face these things everyday, and my stress level is constantly high, what can I do? I can't run from my problems, I can't ignore them, and I can't seem to fix them either. I pray, every single day, for help, for answers, for guidance, and I am still at a loss. Things still aren't improving. I just pray I don't end up in the ER again because of it.
Also, this week, I decided we would go media free. At least in certain areas. These were: Facebook, TV, video games, computer games, phone games. This has not been adhered to 100%, except for video and computer games. I have been fighting Trinity every day also as she insists or begs for the tv to be turned on. I wanted to spend this week, especially since most of it was due to be rainy, focusing on God, Bible reading, and the house. But, that has not happened very well. I may allow some tv and stuff in small amounts this weekend, and try to enforce this, at least for the most part, next week. At least for the girls. I'm not sure how exactly I'm going to work it all out, but we will see. Alot of areas in our lives need refocused. Behaviors and attitudes need readjusted. If you visit my other blog (the link is available on the "links" tab of this page), you will see the post I wrote about holiness. I'm trying to work on this for myself and my girls. To live a godly life, reflect godliness, and live a life that is honoring to God. I know it's not going to happen over night, or just in a week. And it's definitely not going to be easy. I just wish I could focus more on this, and less on some of the other things causing me stress.
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