Where have I been?

I just looked to see how long it's been since I've posted, and though I know it's been a while, I hadn't realized just how long! I've wanted to post about things here and there, but haven't had the chance. Things suddenly got busy around here! The biggest thing happening in our lives lately, has been my grandparents. They ended up having to in to a nursing home a little more than a month ago, and I've been helping my mother with that. We were working on their house and belongings, but then my grandfather got real sick and went in to ICU for a couple weeks. He still is not back to the way he was even when he went in, and probably never will be. He is unable to walk, or even sit himself up. To make things even harder for him, and my entire family, my grandmother passed away last Saturday. It was very sudden and unexpected. We all thought it was ny grandfather this time who was going to go first. We've had a couple close calls with both of them the last couple years. Now, I'm seeing my grandfather like I've never seen him before. He has always been the pillar of strentgh in our family. He never showed if something hurt or not. He's always been the kindest, most loving, incredible man I've known, and he loves his whole family, especially my grandmother, with his whole heart. Next to God, nothing mattered more, not even his own self. Now that my grandmother has passed, he is so broken hearted, all he wants is to be with her. I don't expect it to be to long now before he is. He always found joy in watching his grandchildren play, now he barely notices. All he thinks about is "mama". It hurts me seeing him hurt so much. Not even the pain his body is causing him can compare to the pain of losing her. I love them both so much. They were the only grandparents I had that loved me unconditionally. I have so many memories with them that I will always cherish. But I am glad that my grandmother is spending her eternity with the Lord, and that when my grandfather does go, that's where he will be too. They have both lived long, full lives, full of many blessings (4 children, 12 grandchildren, including me, and 20 great grandkids, 2 of which are my lil angels, and 4 are even quadruplets!), and I know life has taken it's tole on their bodies, and they can't go on like that. I don't want them to die, but to want them to stay is selfish. I just want them to have peace, and never suffer again. I wish I could have them the way I remember them as a child, but I can't. So, now it's the Lords turn. Someday, when I see Jesus, I know I will see my grandmother (& when it comes his time, my grandfather) too.

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