Just Say No... to dating!

Okay, I know this is unrelated to homeschooling, which is what I most usually talk about (I think), but it is related to my life as a single mom. But, I have two thoughts I want to share here today.

1) I finally got some closure today in a "relationship" (that really wasn't) that I thought I had not too long ago. Even though I'm still confused about one thing, and I do feel hurt, betrayed, lied to, used, unappreciated, etc, I also feel relieved. But, I suppose this can also be a good lesson for me in forgiveness and Christ's message of loving your enemies and blessing those who curse you. Anyways, I don't want to go on and on about this, I don't think it would be right.

2) I have decided that I have no desire to date for a little while. Not like I even have been in a year now, almost a year if you count the blip on my screen that I previously mentioned. I don't have any problems with being friends with people, talking to people (which can later turn in to something more along the lines of dating if God so chooses), but I really can't bring myself to date or anything like it right now. Yes, I still want to find the person God wants me to marry and all that, but I guess I have a sour taste in my mouth right now. Honestly, it's not just the one incident, sadly enough. But, the bad experiences aren't the only reasons why. Also, because as I have posted previously, I am really about a lot of things in focusing on God and getting my life organized and in order. I feel I am even making some progress in some things too! I have actually been reading in my Bible a lot more everyday without fail (except while I was camping because I had planned to just use my Bible app on my phone (see the You Version links on the side bar), and therefore didn't bring one, and ended up unable to get service where I was located, and I couldnt, and I was very disappointed and wishing that I had brought one), and have almost completed reading the entire New Testament!

I think 2 things here, 1) dating would distract me from my mission I'm on with God (gee, I really need to tink of something to call this, because my "summer of refocusing" is about to carry in to the fall), and that is wrong. God is to be my #1 and my spouse (when I get one) is to be my #2. I'm trying to make absolutely sure that God is #1 in my life right now. 2) I don't think it's fair to give a godly, decent man a woman who is only "half-baked" (that term just popped in my head, I need to finish my time baking and not be served when I'm not fully prepared and ready yet; yes, I cook a lot). I don't feel that I can do anybody else any good when I'm not in the right place with God yet that I'm working towards. I have a goal, I need to focus on that. God will tell me when it's time to come out of the oven! Which, brings up another thing I keep thinking. I'm honestly getting tired of every experience I have with dating, men, relationships, of just being a lesson and another learning experience. I feel like I'm ready to "graduate" and move on to putting what I've learned in to practice. But, I guess it's another one of those times where I have to wait on the Teacher (who is also my Baker) to tell me when I'm done. Even though this partly applies, it still applies: Luke 6:40 says "students are not greater than their teacher. But the student who is fully trained will become like the teacher." The part I say doesn't apply is that I'm not seeing myself as greater than The Teacher. But, to decided when I'm done "schooling" would be. But, if I keep on with what I'm doing, I can become like Him. That is my goal. I know I will not fully acheive that in this life, and so I can't make that what I wait on to start dating again. Just have to wait to be pulled out of the oven.